It’s about ten PM at night and she’s been in bed for a few hours.
I go into her room to grab something, hoping i don’t wake her.
But she wakes up anyway and I apologize a thousand times, but she says “its okay honey” and she goes back to sleep.
I breathe a sigh of relief as I go back into the living room for a few more hours
I’m a night owl
and I’ll carefully slip under the covers, so I don’t wake her. She looks so peaceful.
I stay the night at their house, and he gives me some pajamas and they fit just perfectly.
And I know that I’m the apple in his eye.
The amount of love I have for him is irreplacable. All my life, I was hoping for someone to love me like that. He shows me what it’s like to be treated right. He’s patient, he’s kind, he’s thoughtful, he’s sweet. Someone in my life I’d want to keep.
Then I go back to her house. And we’ll probably have an argument or disagreement but I know that she still loves me no matter what and she’s working hard to support her family. The family that she lost for 6 years.
We all came back.
And that was the greatest gift for her. Holidays were spent together that we haven’t spent with in awhile.
And there’s never a dull moment, they always make me smile.
They’ve shown me what its like to love unconditionally.
They don’t threaten me with eviction, they don’t shut anything off, they gave me the one thing I’ve never really had and that was a choice.
For everyone who questions why I moved, or why I keep my past in my past. What’s portrayed on social media isn’t what happens within 4 walls and a roof.
For once I have people I can rely on, emotionally. They tell me they love me, they tell me that I’m pretty. They tell me to know my worth.
They guide me in the right direction.
The 3 people I’m talking about here are my grandma, my papa and my mother.
And one day I know I won’t have them, and I pray that day won’t happen for a long time.
So I hug them a little bit tighter.
I hold the ones I love dear
Nothing can stop me now, not even fear.
Because now I truly believed that I am loved.
I truly believe the world is at my feet.