It’s been awhile since I’ve blogged. Thankfully it’s a hobby and I’m not getting paid for it, otherwise I’d suck at my job.
So much has happened within this last month and I’ve experienced things I never thought I would experience.
Recently, I did something I never imagined I would do. I packed up everything I had, and I moved out of state to live with my mom. I don’t like moving and change terrifies me so I’m amazed that it even happened.
I had reached a breaking point. I had realized that I wasn’t living up to my full potential because I was letting so many things bog me down. I realized that I didn’t have to let those things bog me down and that I could do whatever it is that I wanted to, and so I moved.
I lived in Michigan and my Mom lives in Pennsylvania. It’s about a 5 hour drive. On my way there initially (I eventually had to come back for the rest of my things) I broke down outside of sandusky. I didn’t have a phone and my cat was disturbed in his carrier in the front seat. I didn’t know what to do.
I tried (carefully) flagging people down. That didn’t work. I had this weird notion that I should keep driving on the flat, so I did. I figured one of two things were either going to happen. I was going to get pulled over for driving slowly on the shoulder of a freeway or someone was going to stop. Miraculously, none of those happened. A semi truck driver was stopped a few miles ahead of me. I had found safety.
An Ohio state trooper had come up to take care of the tow truck driver, and I was able to explain my situation. The state trooper changed my tire for me. However, he didn’t like the look of the spare. So he called a tow truck.
The tow truck arrives and as soon as they start loading my car onto the truck, the donut pops off of my car. So I had found a pet friendly hotel and both me and my cat were brought to safety.
That notion I had to keep on driving was God. I had never heard a voice that was so quiet yet so loud all at the same time.
The next day arrives and I get the tire replaced (I actually need two tires replaced) and bought a spare phone. I made it to my moms safely.
Eventually, I landed a new job at Applebees and went back to Michigan for the rest of my things. I am still able to finish out school.
I’m really beginning to wonder what His plan is for me. After I moved in with my mom, everything had fallen into place so quickly. I had enough money to get by for the next month, I was able to go back to Michigan for the rest of my things, and within my first week of living here, I landed a job at Applebees.
I’m not that stressed anymore, and I’m all around happier. Granted I’m lonely because I don’t know that many people outside of my family but I know it’ll be okay. I’ll get back on my feet again. I’ll finish school, and I’ll become the woman I was meant to be.
I was able to get all of my bills for the month of October taken care of, with just enough to spare for next months.
I am never alone. Even when it feels like it. I truly believe that everything will be okay, even when it seems like it doesn’t. I’m surrounded by family. I’m literally starting over. A new chapter, if you will.
One door closed, and this one opened and I’m headed in at full speed. I don’t want to forget my old life in Michigan (even though most times I wish I would) because it helped shaped me in a way. I became stronger, and for that I am thankful.
I’m excitied to see what the future has to hold. I’m excited becauase for the first time in awhile, I know what it means to really be free.