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The Thing Beneath The Thing

Today, for the first time in a few months, I went to church. I’m glad I did. I had a breakdown Friday night while I was with friends. I felt like I didn’t belong, that nobody cared, and that I wasn’t good enough.

Today, the pastor talked about just that and he called it “The Thing Beneath the Thing” and he used a pretty awesome metaphor to describe it.

The big thing right now is potholes. They’re everywhere and some of these potholes are turning into major sinkholes causing accidents, and even fatalities all across America. Construction companies are just re-patching them and re-paving them but the problem lies within underground pipes that are leaking which is what causes these potholes that are turning into sinkholes. He did an extensive amount of research on it.

Re patching and re-paving are only a temporary fix to a recurring problem. He used this metaphor to compare it with grace. We sprinkle a little grace on whatever is going on in our lives and call it a day. But sometimes we have to dig deeper. We have to figure out the thing beneath the thing. Once we do that, we can properly fix our “potholes” so they don’t turn into major “sinkholes.”

I wish I could say that every Christian turns to God whenever things get rough. When depression hits, when we’ve taken prescription pills or blow through a fifth a night. But reality is we don’t. We get so hung up on being sad all the time that we don’t want to lean into God and trust his word. And if you say you do, if you lean into God EVERY time  something goes wrong in your life, then you’re lying.

Sometimes, we become addicted to the sadness. Sometimes, we can’t just let go and let God.

I’ve been a walking zombie for the last couple months. I haven’t picked up my bible. I know I should, I know I should lean into His word more, but I’ve become addicted to the sadness. I’ve learned what co-dependency is and realized that I am very co-dependent. With that, I have identified my “pothole” and can properly fix it.

He wants us to lean into him when we get sad or upset. He wants us to lean into Him when we have hit a pothole in our lives, but it’s hard. Sometimes it’s easier said than done.

The pastor then started talking about Peter, and I could relate. Peter sometimes did what God wanted him to do, and other times he didn’t. Why? I don’t know. I haven’t read 1 Peter just yet, but when I do, I’m sure I can figure it out.

In 1 Peter 5:7 it flat out says what we should do. “Casting all your anxieties on Him, because he cares for you.”

When Adam and Eve took a bite of the forbidden apple their initial reaction was to literally hide from God. They were ashamed, they felt guilty.

We are hiding behind the real reason why we feel the way that we feel. Everyday events trigger us, igniting a fight or flight response and I can’t speak to you, but when that kicks in I immediately go into flight. I’ve learned how to manage it better, but I haven’t been able to overcome going into flight mode. That’s something only God can do. I am hiding from the thing beneath the thing and I can’t hide forever.


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John 3: Becoming Born Again

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world but to save the world through him.” John 3:16-17

Seeing isn’t always believing and believing isn’t always seeing. Jesus was having a conversation with Nicodemus who was a pharisee that came to him. He wanted to know how someone can be “born again” when they are old.

Being “born again” isn’t literally going back into your mother’s womb and starting over. If it was, I’m sure we would all take that opportunity and re-live our lives and do many things differently.

Being “born again” is accepting God as your Lord and Savior. Being born again is committing your heart, your soul, and your life to Jesus. All throughout your bible you hear the verse “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind” in some way shape or form. Luke 10:27 says this, Matthew 22:37, Deuteronomy 6:5, as well as Mark 12:30-31.

Jesus was trying to convince the people that God was very much alive and that we had to obey him, but the people couldn’t believe in what they couldn’t see. John 3:8 says “The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.”

Granted, times have changed and we can now tell the direction of the wind and where it’s going. However, we still can’t physically see the wind. Does that mean it’s not there? That it doesn’t exist? No. Absolutely not. God is the same exact way. We can’t see him, but he’s there.

I was reading 1 Kings 18 tonight before I started this post. The story about Elijah, the Lord’s prophet and pagans. The two bulls that were sacrificed. The first bull that belonged to the pagan God did nothing. It wouldn’t set on fire, it wouldn’t rain (Samaria, the setting of this event was in the middle of a drought). The second bull caught on fire and the draught ended. The Lord set the bull on fire then made it rain-literally. Nobody could see God, but they all knew they were there. They didn’t believe in the Lord before. However, they witnessed a miracle and all of a sudden started believing.

“Very truly I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless they are born again.” John 3:3

If you want eternal life, and you want to reach heaven one day, you must become born again. In order to become born again, you must accept the Jesus as your Lord and Savior.  He died for all of our sins and paid the ultimate price.